#312 Feelings.

So... it has been more than a year now that I have settled myself in office environment. They really care about me and have fun a lot with me around. Not to mention, I did quiet a good job with my department, and I hope I can stay in the department for as long as I wanted to. It's just...the argument with your higher management needed to be more professional. Instead of...

"Screw you!"

We say,

"Noted, will work on that matter for future reference."

Instead of..

"What the f- is going on with you?"

We say,

"If you needed further assistance feel free to contact us."

Previously, people call me "Chef Dini."

Now, they are used to by calling me "Ms. Dini."


Not a single day in my life that I would decline the offer of getting me back in the kitchen.

Not anymore.




X,
Dini Amr

#311

I have no idea why I get nervous when I'm about to write something. It feels like something is churning inside my stomach and felt like I'm gonna throw up...


rainbows.


It's 2020 and things have been completely bizarre at the moment. Friends getting married and engaged basically a normal news to be scrolled on my social media; which is f- annoying. Don't get me wrong, I want you to be happy (I don't.), it's just that it's super annoying with all the get going lives and whatnot.

I mean...cheers to people who are still f- struggling to find money for family commitments, semua taknak bebankan parents, you are doing absolutely great. No one noticed that shit however, but you're doing great. I mean it. I want all these people to be happy. It's very tiring to hold the burden all on your own but hey...at least you know a friend here is also facing the same thing.

Plus, kenduri kahwin yg dah tunang or kahwin...semua pakai duit parents.

Wtf yall do?

It drives me nuts every time some grand wedding pops up and the extravaganza part of it, it was not even the newlyweds f- money.

Yall not strippers, and I'm very aware of that.

So to have $20k inside your bank account is kind of IMPOSSIBLE BITCH YOU AIN'T CARDI B.



Even Kylie Jenner is still not married and her net worth is 90 BILLION DOLLARS we're talking here. It's just that when you're not ready, you kinda know. Honestly, me too. I'm not. I have no idea why people keep on asking me to get married as soon as you can.



Imma like, let me stop you there.

As soon as you got married, things you need to take care are your shit, and your spouse shit.

I got a lot going on and honestly to share that with the person I'm in love with it's kind of unfair.

Don't get me wrong, I wanna get married. You have no idea how many plans I've got going.

But, let me do it right.

Let me do it right.

Cause I'm the Cinderella, bitch. Get your own movie.